lonely christmas

lonely, lonely christmas
merry, merry christmas....

kg....actually I still miss you and wish to talk with you at any time... but I really not willing to hear you talk about you and HIM. Please dont share your new life with me, it hurts... >.<

I want you to leave me alone, but I still want to talk with you....I am ML also...

7 - 23rd

Something changes again today.

Im confused.

5 - 21st

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開心---又過一日
唔開心---又過一日


但係聽左張學友呢首歌, 開心唔到...真係好touching

如果．愛 ~ 張學友*

每個人 都想明白 誰是自己生命不該錯過的真愛
特別在午夜醒來 更是會感慨
心痛埋怨 還有不能釋懷 都是因為你觸碰了愛。
如果這就是愛 在轉身就該勇敢留下來
就算受傷 就算流淚 都是生命裡溫柔灌溉
愛 在回憶裡總是那麼明白
困惑的心 流過的淚 還有數不盡黑夜等待
如果這就是愛

如果你 當時明白 後來的生命裡是快樂還是悲哀
特別在夜深人靜時想起未來 是否能平靜不會像現在
只是因為你擁有了愛
如果這就是愛，在轉身就該勇敢留下來
就算受傷 就算流淚 都是生命裡溫柔灌溉
愛 在回憶裡總是那麼明白
困惑的心 流過的淚 還有數不盡黑夜等待
如果這就是愛

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Sign... knowing you are reading this, I really cant write anything freely ! I want you to know but I dont want you to know... aiiii.....Im ML too...>.<

I told my bro about our problem.
My bro is always nice to me and to my/his family. He sent me a SMS to comfort me. I feel so touching... Dunno why words from family will always touch our hearts....I think he is the best man in the world !!

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I cannot accept you say you know your decision is wrong but you still have to do it. It is the stupiest thing to do in the world and surely ends in regret. Maybe I was wrong before I leaded you to make a decision. Please clear up your mind first. If you think you are doing it right, then go ahead.

BTW, angels are all around me
Thank you sis
I decided to be angels for others too, first to my boss

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surprised you still remember this blog....yuen loi I got a reader here...
But then I dunno how to write now...Im always too care about your feelings...aiiii...

I always think this way, if a pair of lovers break up, its bcuz God thinks this one is not suitable for you. Either you or me still have to learn how to love.

I guess Im going to have some big changes from now on.....
I know Im growing, and I have a target.

God is always good to me when I need him. Thanks God, thanks everyone that loves me, and you.

finally

Finally, we break up.
She went hotpot with fat guy and sis and her friends. I call her to join, she said its not convenient for me to join. I can guess what happened.
Tonite we talk about it on phone, she said "sorry", and I understand we are going to separate.
I have no tears, but dunno what's going on tmr when we will have no email and no more phone calls... I hope God can help me ease the pain.
Goodbye, my fat and short kgj.... I love you. Wish you have happiness.

Im thinking....

kg... you know what ? Im thinking.
I haven't heard of you telling me anything about the fat guy any more. I didn't ask, and I don't want to know about that.... I guess Im trying to escape from it...
You are sleeping early now.... we usually talk on phone after 12, now we still have phone calls, but would be around 11:30 - 12...
The last time the icq girl was doing the same... she talked with me on phone every nite, but after I hang up she talked with the other guy... This keeps for many months I guess until one day she said we should breakup....
Are you doing the same to me ? Im afraid......
Im sorry I know I should trust you, as you never lie to me. But Im lossing "security feeling"

God, pls pave the way for us !